When life gives you lemons??

You eat them?

Alrighty, so I know with my last blog post I said I was in a relationship with my ex. LOL well just kidding because that's not a thing anymore. I don't even know if I want to talk about it publicly just yet because it still stings a lot. I'm not even sure of the first thing to say. I have a lot of feelings and emotions and whatever but I'm okay. 

INSTEAD of talking about a dumboi for paragraphs and paragraphs I'm going to write about the trip that I took to the Netherlands back in February-- because I realize now I NEVER BLOGGED ABOUT IT?! Um, and if I don't blog about it then it didn't happen, right? hehe

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Keep in mind that I basicallyyyy spent the entire trip with my bestie Yvonne, so there will be LOTS of photos of us together. We saw Sasha Velour in Amsterdam, hung out on her couch a LOT, I got to experience Carnaval, and we had a little weekend trip to Rotterdam! Enjoy! 

 Look at those natural nails! 

Look at those natural nails! 

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Yvonne met me at the airport with a balloon that says "Welcome Home" in Dutch! *cries*

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SO basically the day after I arrived we had VIP tickets to go see Sasha Velour at Melkweg in Amsterdam. (She lives in Amersfoort which is like a 30-40 min train ride away). We got all fancy and went into the city for one of the best nights of my life. 

 on stage in the VIP line

on stage in the VIP line

Just some casual photos of us. lol 

 Um Sasha commented on my nails, and style and everything and i about *died*

Um Sasha commented on my nails, and style and everything and i about *died*

 HUGGING ONE OF MY IDOLS

HUGGING ONE OF MY IDOLS

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 BEST PHOTO EVAR

BEST PHOTO EVAR

 See that backup dancer on the right? 

See that backup dancer on the right? 

During the middle of the show the host of the show called out for "Sluts" in the audience. By this point Yvonne and I were pretty tipsy, and she pointed at me to get on stage. The host wanted the sluts to out themselves and get on stage... SO Yvonne basically drug me on stage because I was so scaredy and nervous. BUT IT WAS ONE OF THE BEST MOMENTS OF MY LIFE. I didn't realize it until I was up on stage that I would have to give a lap dance to one of the freaking back up dancers for Sasha that night. So I did a nice little teasey tease dance and it was so amazing seeing an entire venue packed full of all different kinds of queer people, straight people, drag queens--- all cheering for me. 

 Centraal Station photobooth realness 

Centraal Station photobooth realness 

 NO TRAIN RIDE IS COMPLETE WITHOUT SNAXXX

NO TRAIN RIDE IS COMPLETE WITHOUT SNAXXX

So ya know how there is Mardi Gras here in Louisiana? Well in the Netherlands (the Southern parts) they celebrate Carnaval-- which is basically a watered down version of Mardi Gras. It's like if you took a bunch of Polka music, Dutch puns, neon colors and smashed them into a parade with small floats .... hahaha. But honestly I loved it. 

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 Yvonne dressed up as a famous Dutch TV charachter 

Yvonne dressed up as a famous Dutch TV charachter 

 Here we are looking cute AF heading to Rotterdam for the weekend. I can't describe enough with how much this lady means to me. She has me believing again that unconditional love between friends is real. That it doesn't matter to her how far away we live or how often we talk. We are always going to be there for each other. 

Here we are looking cute AF heading to Rotterdam for the weekend. I can't describe enough with how much this lady means to me. She has me believing again that unconditional love between friends is real. That it doesn't matter to her how far away we live or how often we talk. We are always going to be there for each other. 

 I made her pose in front of graffiti even though she doesn't like photos taken of her. heheheh

I made her pose in front of graffiti even though she doesn't like photos taken of her. heheheh

Here's a mish mash of a bunch of images from Museum Boijmans Van Beuningen in Rotterdam. I really feel like I would fit in so well in Rotterdam. It's much different than the rest of the NL. Seems more "hip" and contemporary-- which makes sense because it was basically all rebuilt after WW2. 

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A picture of me making a face at Yvonne because we were arguing about street art. hahahah

 My BFF. Making it happen.

My BFF. Making it happen.

Cool buildings! Boba tea! Snacks! Oh my! 

 One of my new favorite foods: Gözleme. It's a traditional savory Turkish pastry dish and it was GOOD as FUCK. I don't look amused, but that's because my feet hurt. lol

One of my new favorite foods: Gözleme. It's a traditional savory Turkish pastry dish and it was GOOD as FUCK. I don't look amused, but that's because my feet hurt. lol

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 Well duh I spend 9 Euros on a drink called Pussy Juice. 

Well duh I spend 9 Euros on a drink called Pussy Juice. 

 Juicy.

Juicy.

 Lol blursula

Lol blursula

Here's a couple more images from the Museum I mentioned above. This was really amazing because up above in the stairwell there was a video installation where you climbed up above the stairs in a net and laid down and watched the video. I am TERRIFIED of heights but Yvonne helped me. lol 

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 Super rad coat hanging installation. 

Super rad coat hanging installation. 

 Me + Rotterdam

Me + Rotterdam

More food porn and scenes from Rotterdam. Oh and when I came down from that net installation thing--- I ripped my pants. Hahahah

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 Photo by Yvonne

Photo by Yvonne

 Before weekend/ After weekend

Before weekend/ After weekend

Something that I feel like really makes you feel like a true Dutch person is riding on the back of a bicycle. I obviously NEVER though that would happen but-- never say never. 

 Cruisin' 

Cruisin' 

 That's Yvonne's husband Thomas-- who is also super rad and he was able to give me a ride home so we didn't have to walk like 2 miles. 

That's Yvonne's husband Thomas-- who is also super rad and he was able to give me a ride home so we didn't have to walk like 2 miles. 

 Look I match her rat. lol 

Look I match her rat. lol 

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This was really the trip where I found my inner Dutch self. 

This trip was basically a "learn to love the NL again" trip. I was able to find my strength and do things I felt like I could never do whenever I was living there and riddled with anxiety. 
I also went back to where I used to live and hung out with the downstair neighbors-- and I even took some photos of her in her apartment. She's like 83 and has been living in this apartment for 50+ years. And pretty much everything is some version of pink. Usually she even wears all pink but this day she was wearing baby blue. I miss this lady and having coffee and treats with her in the mornings-- or waving at her through the window when I left for the day. 

 The most amazing bedroom. 

The most amazing bedroom. 

 Oma means Grandma

Oma means Grandma

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I didn't really talk about it much, but I had a short relationship with a good friend, Tjitse whenever I was in the NL this time. I feel like there's so much to say about this relationship with this incredibly special person but for right now I just want to keep that to myself. 

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Yvonne volunteers at this cute little viking farm place so I got to go with her to help her feed the lil animals! And I also had a traditional Dutch breakfast-- bread with butter and sprinkles. lol Called Hagelslag! 

Whew. Okay so this pretty much concludes my February trip which was easily one of the most amazing trips I've ever been on. Traveling solo is amazing. Best friends are amazing. 

 4am airport waiting is not amazing though.

4am airport waiting is not amazing though.

 Selfie in a bathroom at Lisbon, Portugal airport

Selfie in a bathroom at Lisbon, Portugal airport

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Welcome home to America. 

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'Til next time, y'all. 

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